I notice it. Yet i pretend i dunno.
i Really dunno wat to say le. Quite tired.
It really hurts me, I feel so upsad thinking
of the old time. Untill i dun wan remenber.
I care about your feeling not saying out.
I put myself in your shoe to things how you feel.
Hiding everythings. Just not to lost a friend
like you. You ARe the first who I put in so
much. Now i puting at act. ABit guity, yet
i am much happy. I sleep more well, last time
when night come i could'nt not stop thinking of
all things. I also dunno why. Cus i the
most qutie time bahx. Maybe not enough good to
understand you. Sorry i not a good friend of
Your. I don't understand you.

I always Remenber last time i use to tell
you everythings & I ask about your things
I got ur reply was NTH LARHX. Now i understand
my feeling. But i did'nt care much that time,
slowly i find in really very unfair lohx. I
tell you everythings, but u nvr tell me?

Got One time ah hong korkor asked me.
kor: How come your friend go our never ask you de?
How come they like that derhx. I tough you all very
close dehx. My kor even ask she like very unhappy saw us
here lehx.

Not Because of Chen Jiao things i don't
trust you le. It the things between me
and you.

Even that Chenjiao Things I don't even
know at first. Only u four know only at
first. YOu never wanted me to know. You only
Tell chelzia and puiying wat? You already
don't trust me from the start le.

How i felt? nth.

I know I was the first who Hurts you first.
I was too childish In the old days. Too
straight forwards sometIMES I i did not know
i hurts u. ALl i wanted was Having fun. I forget
You are older then me. BUt Now i REMENBER le.
I wont do Such thing to you. x3 it kept remind me.

LAstly,
i dunno wanted to say so much cus.

1. You will say " we dun be friend le"
2. You will Get angry.
3. You will get hurts.
4. We will Cry.
5. Nothing seem to change.

I Don't Wanna go remenber it so much.
I write Wat i remenber le.

I Really tell you everythings last time.
I reallty TRUSTED YOU ALOTS. That all bahx.

I Don't wanna talk about last time le.
I wanna A New begining. x33 hahas. I been
trying my best to forget. How about you?

Even It cant be totally prefect.
AT last we Try, Cant be very close friend
Is really not important le. AT last we Still
Are friend.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Sorri. ii did't noe,, ii cause u to hav sleepless night last tyms.
sorri ii make you til you dun wish to rmb the past.
Becos you're the onli one hu understand. Becos you're jus too gud fer me.
That ii lost my temper on you jus lyk how ii lost my temper on my family member.
the ans you wan ii alwaes can't giv bcos ii dun even noe the ans myself.
if ii dun trust u frm the start why would ii stil choose u as my frens.?
Yes, we was childish in the past, havin fun was wad we aim fer.
but aint nw le.
ii yearn so hard that we'll be bk at the past. but that impossible le. ii noe.
ii nv wanted to 4get it at al.
Sorri to make your memoriies so sad.
Sorri to make imperfect in your past.
Sorri to make you bein a beginner again.
Yes, we might stil be frens, yet the feelin wasn't lyk last tyms,
lyk how we use to enjoy.

was it al my naive, wishful tinkin.?
since 1/1/08 everythin chg.

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Mmm,, is hard to say thing out,,
you also know,,is not a easy thing
for people to just say out or even
is their own problem is not easy..^^

If you stand in a way which If I had
do something wrong,, what will you
think of me?? hard to say..?? ^^

Or put me into your situation,, &
put you into my situation.. what will
you thing of me,, hate me,, distrusted
in me??

If it is so do you think is easy to tell
me?? ^^ can you just say out easily
to me?? I think not easy bahx??

you also know i'm a people which
wont wish to lose a friend.. ^^ even
the people i hate i will so still be
friend with them.. =) But also must
see who they are..? ^^

The problem you have create it
& you need to destroy it by
yourselves... ^^ although it's hard
to do it,, but is happen & stay..
Time will pass very fast.. ^^

if you cant hold onto this kind of
thingy anymore.. then you shouldn't
had start it.. ^^

Dun feel angry or sad.. just to tell you.. ^^

Chelzia,, as your friend here.. cheer up!! ^^
you can overcome it oneday.. ^^ you have
already step on the way which you are
regret in.. ^^

So continue to walk dunno stop.. ^^
one day,, you will find a way which
is for you to start anew.. ^^

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Sorri ii neglect your situation le.
the person you hate u'll stil be frens with them,
izzit me or XXX .?
Yes, tyms pass fast, it N's nw 1mre mth we wil leave this sch.
But wad ii dun wish to start had aready start.
the fact is out.
ii'm angry fer why am ii so silly to destroy the relationship between me & her.
Yes, Thanks fer bein ther as my frens.

Chelzia, sorri. ii log in ur acc to take the post.
Cos ii wasn't able to copy frm ur blog.
Sorri.

But did your hate me, distrust me.?
Ger, ii yearn fer the past so much.

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